Winter….
Before I moved to Scotland I haven’t really experienced much of winter blues or I just was not aware of them. My body was younger I was certainly less connected with it, so maybe this is not solely isolated incident to Scotland, yet I feel it profoundly here.
Now is the time, when I am slowly starting to feel the blues. My body feels heavier and more tired every day. One of the reasons I find Christmas very stressful every year is the amount of effort one needs to put into buying presents, financial strain it represents while feeling so unmotivated and low. Every year I power through this period the best I can, hoping once January comes I will feel better, because holidays are done, but in fact it becomes even worse.
Scotland becomes quite dark during winter, sun setting as early as 3.30pm and so days internally feel much shorter as well. My body always goes into hibernation faze, not really wanting to be any way productive and efficient in opposition to summer months when I certainly feel much more energised and motivated.
I guess some people are more prone to such mood decline than others, given how sensitive we are and how aware we are of such sensitivity. I definitely suffer from seasonal depression, which is an occurring phenomena among some people as the seasons change. I guess the awareness helps to be a bit more proactive towards self-care and if possible slowing down. Hard bit I find is to be really aware before it comes. Despite the fact I feel it every year, while I am up and running, fairly motivated throughout the summer it is difficult to imagine that within only few months my energies decrees significantly and I will have to push myself into absolutely everything every day.
This year was somewhat better as I managed most of the presents early on as I won’t be travelling for Christmas to see my family. At least this pressure is taken away. But still I am not entirely sure how to tackle whole seasonal energy decrees. Exercise, healthy diet, vitamin D are my goings to and hopefully I will be able to maintain them throughout the whole winter as the hardest months are only about to come. I hope to go for hikes and out to nature as well despite the fact I feel less motivated than in summer months.
February and March are definitely the most difficult months of the year for me. I feel completely depleted, exhausted and drained from the winter, that even transitioning into the warmer months takes a little while. April tends to be still quite difficult month with little energies, but at least sun is starting to show off more often and I feel more positivity within myself going forward.
Ah I can’t wait for April to arrive, but for now we are just entering the dark and low. I had a need to share this bit as maybe there is more of you out there struggling with the same and is always nice to be seen 😊 Hopefully I find energies and motivation sharing some bits throughout the winter finding out what really helps and what doesn’t. Remember my process is purely individual, but it can resonate with some of yous out there, the sensitive ones whos connection to the enviroment and nature is quite significant.
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