Hiking skottish highlands with 20kg backpack. Is it possible?

Breath taking mountains wilderness and nothing just nature around is why I love hiking. It can be overwhelming sometimes but same time it´s one of those things which make you realise you´re alive.

Once you look from top of the mountain around feeling almost as a part of clouds and heaven. Do you know that feeling? Not just slight rush through your body and stomach, proudness of what you have just managed to climb but as well that feeling of freedom, being part of something much bigger which seems to be almost reachable on top of the mountain or you can almost smell it in the air surrounding the mountain lake.

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When you just are

That space of stillness and calmness within us. I don´t know about you but I have heard teachers around the world for many years now talking about this space. Helping us to get there. All over again and again talking about that same thing. You can name it Mooji, Tolle, Osho, Ivanka and many others. Always there for their students who are ready to listen. And always it comes back to that space where it all arises which is behind our body behind our self. It just is.

When I first heard about this space it did sound familiar but I wasn´t there. Through life and experiences I have started to be there but only sometimes. I got into a role of observer, observer of myself of the body with name with certain destiny. It all became quieter. It is quieter now.

Great times of this quiet space are when I paint but not only then. It is there when I talk when I wash dishes, when I walk. Art leads me there tough it is only one of many tools which made my mind to be quieter.

Then questioned arise…

What is the point of life if I just am? Mind was talking again so I put myself into work because I found out those are times when mind shuts up. It takes its focus to what is my body actually doing rather than wandering about and feel whatever – sorry for itself, angry, sad, mad, lonely, stressed, pressured etc..

And I paint, draw and laugh and just am. There is nothing else necessary, although I do all that other necessary staff too. I live. But I do it as an observer of this body doing all the staff in every day being happy I can just be 🙂

Do I not identify with my body anymore?

Yes I do, there is still what to learn until I get there permanently. I´m on the way though. I´m on my way.

Am I where I am supposed to be?

It is question I would be asking myself quite a lot in my life. Have you?

In times of struggle and feeling drained I would be asking myself what is the purpose of my life…I would always find it for a little while in something but then I would get stuck in routine again and again. Art and music are only things which never became routine because these activities we do out of our heart not our minds. At least I do.

Sometimes it feels hard to see purpose in everyday routine although we might be doing jobs which are considered to be meaningful. What then about jobs which are considered not that much?

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Artist´s Way

I am doing Artists way again. I found the book in charity shop few years ago and I have started it but then other things came along and only thing I kept going with was journaling as I couldn´t find a time for other staff book recommend. But I have started again because I have started couching sessions which are veery helpful and the inner spark to be my authentic and creative self just started shinning again.

So I am now in 3 weeks of couching and in 3 weeks of Artists way course. There are happening many changes in my life. I have started putting my main focus on rituals which make me feel better as I am very sensitive personality (so called highly sensitive extroverted introvert) and as well on things I love and would like to move forward with.

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Artist’s journey 2018 came to its end

There is always an end to everything. Time to recollect look back to our steps what we left behind and what we have learnt.

It is new year but I´m not going to write about past year and all those valuable experiences I have learnt. No. I want to talk about my passion which is art. Last year I made a step to get better and started art watercolour course which lasted around three months and I learnt not just about watercolour techniques but about my skills and believes holding me back or intentions pushing me forward.

My intentions originally were to write about every class and techniques I learnt. Life got in the way though and my priorities were somewhere else – in finishing my hypnotherapy qualification (about that maybe some other time) which consumed all my spare time.

What would it be art and paintings without its stories. What would be painting techniques without its purpose?

So this is my journey through my watercolour course which started in September 2018.

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Are you painting amatuer as me? Let´s try some watercolours!

As I mentioned before I have started going to painting classes. This blog is about my journey as a human being but as a possible artist one day as well. I have learnt a lot at these classes. I don´t make usually notes so I have decided I put all the learnt here to remember it.

Pictures won´t be the best. Well I am still in learning process but that is not important. Important is the information I have gathered there which might be useful for you as well.

In this series I am going to talk about WATERCOLOURES. So if you´re a self-thought artist and feel like you need to move forward in your painting practice maybe you can find some hints right here. If you´re very much amateur who has just started or is painting some time but feels like doesn´t really grasp watercolours yet you might find useful info here.

So let´s get to some painting…

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Photo we painted from

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Back to wilderness from busy city life in only one day – camp by Loch Lomond

Do you need to get out of busy life of the city but don´t have much of spare time? Want to go for a short trip (1night) somewhere in Scotland? Are you very much skinned but still need to clear your head?

What about ´bonny banks of Loch Lomond? I can assure you they are even bonnier then the song.

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you can have such great views just outside of the door if you camp by Loch Lomond

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The most intense day hitchhiking Scotland

Hitchhiking. I always wanted to try it. Well I did it couple of times when there wasn´t any other option get to the place but those were just short distances. This time it was completely different. We filled our backpacks to be ready camping on the way, I wrote signs for directions on the cardboards and we hit the road ready to hitchhike Scotland.

There was just a tiny problem.

It was Saturday and it was raining. Raining all day.

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We eneded up under the bridge realizing hitchhiking in the rain is just hard.

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Time to get some paid art classes

Yesterday I had my first painting class. I do art about 3 years now, but I am self-thought artist. Well I wouldn´t really call myself an artist yet 🙂

I have started doing art on very strange circumstances. There was a guy of course. I was very much in love with him, but it just wasn´t right timing, maybe we weren´t meant to be for each other. He left thousands miles away and I found it hard to deal with all the emotions. One day I found myself standing in front of the shelf with art supplies in the shop thinking: „what the hell am I doing here? I have no idea about art.“ But I saw how my hand is reaching for brushes and paints. It was just incredible, something what was probably meant to be and I had no control over that. I got home and started painting and I draw and paint since then (with huge gaps sometimes though).

Back to the class now. This is my first time taking paid classes with a tutor and it is gonna be a great experience. On first class I learnt so much, techniques I had no idea about until now and just those simple easy advices opened another door for me when it comes to watercolours.

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Crossing Forth Bridge (South Queensferry and Dalmeny)

My friend once told me ´Buy a ticket to South Queensferry, cross the bridge, walk around and then stop by in Dalmeny. Just tell to the ticket guy that you will be stopping in Dalmeny and then continue to Edinburgh. He should be fine.´ As person who doesn´t like conflicts (in a case one would of happen with ticket guy) I wasn´t very sure about this idea. But I took a risk.

Edinburgh itself offers a lot of interesting places to visit. Do you want to explore deeper and more father? Just by train or bus distance there are amazing places which shouldn´t be abandoned in Edinburgh´s shadow.

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