When you just are

That space of stillness and calmness within us. I don´t know about you but I have heard teachers around the world for many years now talking about this space. Helping us to get there. All over again and again talking about that same thing. You can name it Mooji, Tolle, Osho, Ivanka and many others. Always there for their students who are ready to listen. And always it comes back to that space where it all arises which is behind our body behind our self. It just is.

When I first heard about this space it did sound familiar but I wasn´t there. Through life and experiences I have started to be there but only sometimes. I got into a role of observer, observer of myself of the body with name with certain destiny. It all became quieter. It is quieter now.

Great times of this quiet space are when I paint but not only then. It is there when I talk when I wash dishes, when I walk. Art leads me there tough it is only one of many tools which made my mind to be quieter.

Then questioned arise…

What is the point of life if I just am? Mind was talking again so I put myself into work because I found out those are times when mind shuts up. It takes its focus to what is my body actually doing rather than wandering about and feel whatever – sorry for itself, angry, sad, mad, lonely, stressed, pressured etc..

And I paint, draw and laugh and just am. There is nothing else necessary, although I do all that other necessary staff too. I live. But I do it as an observer of this body doing all the staff in every day being happy I can just be 🙂

Do I not identify with my body anymore?

Yes I do, there is still what to learn until I get there permanently. I´m on the way though. I´m on my way.

Am I where I am supposed to be?

It is question I would be asking myself quite a lot in my life. Have you?

In times of struggle and feeling drained I would be asking myself what is the purpose of my life…I would always find it for a little while in something but then I would get stuck in routine again and again. Art and music are only things which never became routine because these activities we do out of our heart not our minds. At least I do.

Sometimes it feels hard to see purpose in everyday routine although we might be doing jobs which are considered to be meaningful. What then about jobs which are considered not that much?

Continue reading

Artist´s Way

I am doing Artists way again. I found the book in charity shop few years ago and I have started it but then other things came along and only thing I kept going with was journaling as I couldn´t find a time for other staff book recommend. But I have started again because I have started couching sessions which are veery helpful and the inner spark to be my authentic and creative self just started shinning again.

So I am now in 3 weeks of couching and in 3 weeks of Artists way course. There are happening many changes in my life. I have started putting my main focus on rituals which make me feel better as I am very sensitive personality (so called highly sensitive extroverted introvert) and as well on things I love and would like to move forward with.

Continue reading

Vision Board

I dropped the path leading me to golden prison and decided to be more mayself and doing things I really love. I have started painting, working in hospitality, playing guitar again. But I got lost somewhere on the way because that annoying voice in my head saying ´you can´t make living from this, you´re not good enough´just wouldn´t stop.

I got so lost that I even wouldn´t allow myself doing things I really love. What is it I actually really love?

There came to me an idea about vision board. Well the real idea of vision board is that you put on the paper goals you would want to achieve in the future or places you would like to visit to keep them in your focus.

I made a little bit different vision board where I put five main things I love and make me happy to keep them in mind and focus on them in daily life. I have struggles to keep going in things I really love as my reasonable self doesn´t consider them to be important.

So I said to my annying voice: ´Since now I´ll make choices according to five things what appeared on my board.´

I am coming back to my childhood years back to things I loved there or as a teenager. Not anymore listening what I ´should´ but what I ´feel/want´ to be doing. My vision board appeared on the paper and I luckily realised that actually I am already slowly going towards my dreams doing what I really love. Better late than never 🙂

So if you feel inspired take some paper, paints, pencils and markers. Print out some pictures and make your own vision board. What you love in your life the most? What were your dreams as a child? What you loved back then?

Or are there places you would love to visit?

Keeping focus on things we really love makes us happier. World full of happy people is definitely place worth living as only happy person is able to make happy someone else.

IMG_2309

So what would look like your vision board?

Did you like the article? Get every new post to your email box (bottom of the page) or follow (and find more related content) on Facebook, Twitter, Pinterest or Instagram and don´t miss any news from artistic and travelling life of one artist beginner.

Creativity Notebook 1.part

Wanders

At the moment I wonder how that would be being a support worker or children care worker. It´s something what really calls me. I wonder as well what it would be like go more into guitar playing and singing, drawing and painting.

Flow

It´s couple of months ago, when I sat and draw I felt huge desire to draw emotions I was feeling. I was just drawing, not thinking. Actually I felt last time flow at work in coffee shop couple of days ago. We got busy and I was just preparing all paninis and wraps quick and organised, listening everybody around related to work but focused on my tasks. I lost what time is and how long it was.

When I was 8… Continue reading