Mushroom picking – there is inspiration in simple things

Not long ago I was trying to capture our herbs picking with my family. The same day we went for mushroom picking, which wasnĀ“t that successful šŸ˜€

Yet it was an amazing day outside in the forests very dear to me. I have seen my first deer running through the path at the early morning here, when all I could hear was stamping noise. I learnt here to recognise which mushrooms are good to eat and which ones are better left behind.

As a child I was aware of beauty surrounding me and felt that nature and forests are these magical places where everything is possible and everything is somehow beautiful. ThatĀ“s not what always nature is though. It has its way to teach us often difficult and challenging bits about life and what does it mean to be a human as well.

After years coming back felt as a pathway to past memories which rushed through my head as we walked. Again I wanted to capture this old memory and this present moment which possibly could be source of inspiration for finding beauty in simple things for someone else.

I donĀ“t know about you, but I just love walking through any kind of the forest, especially when it is nice and easy to walk around and ground is covered in fresh grass. That was exactly how morning would welcome us fresh dew on the grass and smell of the forest in the air.

As we entered the forest we were lucky to find a mushroom and it gave us hope for a successful day, but unfortunately few more we found and that was all for that day.

It hasnĀ“t disappointed me though, because I again found some inspiration inside in between those trees.

Small things came my way as fallen bird nest, colourful bug trying to get his way or deer running in the distance. It was a time when I have started recording small bits of these beautiful moments and thinking about the way how could I capture the feeling and the memory I got here. I guess it was the beginning of my video editing journey as a way to be creative yet make sense of the experience as well.

Everything is always happening for its reason, so the fact we havenĀ“t found any mushrooms that day had its purpose as well.

That was a special day spent with my parents, remembering times we used to go there when I was a child. Admiring hard work of ants who tried to steal every small bit of our sandwiches which fell on the ground and creating new memories together to hold on for later when we will be apart once again.

People sometimes ask and wander why would I live so far away. Maybe there will come a time I will feel a need to move closer but so far the fact not being close taught all of us to value even more greatly than before our relationship which is certainly valuable lesson having.

I hope and believe there will come a time that I will be allowed spend maybe more time with them but not losing the life here in order to do so.

Come with me then for this little poetic forest walk which can maybe inspire you as well to find your own inspiration in small things life have to offer.   

The cycle – misunderstood natural process of being human

‘She must be on her period, Ā“ said a man in a suit to his colleague laughing at their boss who just burst in anger about some in their eyes unimportant thing.

Ā“Other woman are just fine and functioning why canĀ“t you?Ā“

Ā“I donĀ“t want to hear about it itĀ“s disgusting.Ā“

Ā“You canĀ“t use your cycle as an excuse for being meanĀ“

IĀ am sorry for maybe uncomfortable topic for some but same time can be aĀ little eye opening and if you are aĀ man you can maybe understand aĀ woman aĀ little bit more.

Have you ever heard any of the statements above? Personaly or throug others I did.

Just few days ago I had very strange experience. Pain would be very common companion every month but what I experienced now was way far more extreme than ever before. I guess the connection to my own woman site and body is reaching its culminating point so with understanding can sometimes come pain as well. I almost called the ambulance when I was just about to faint while making breakfast being unable to stand up, covered in hot sweat, pinpointed to the bed crawling like a hurt animal. My whole body vibrated and only open my eyes was too much, too painful, too overwhelming. Whole world around me was spiralling and I wasnĀ“t sure if it ever ends.

All IĀ could do is accept that my body is going through something difficult yet important. Once IĀ have embraced my state which was aĀ little scary the sensation started easing itself.

Woman cycle is aĀ truly strange but in aĀ way a magical thing as well. IĀ am not an exception in better understanding my own woman site as older IĀ get.

There used to be times when IĀ wished to be rather aĀ man and cycle was one of the reasons.

I have been always very sensitive to it skipped classes at school because of it felt embarrassed when I was one of the first one in my class to experience it.

Such a natural thing which somehow we grow up to hide, feel embarrassed about, find hard to talk about, push ourselves to feel and perform as nothing would be happening every month to our body. We have learnt to take pills to control and change natural patterns as we would think it is our right playing gods.

I donĀ“t blame you there is a huge pressure to be fully functioning as if we wouldnĀ“t be humans.

How could a world run predominantly by mind understand that every woman experiences her cycle differently, some are more sensitive to it than others, that it is unhuman effort to try control moods in this time. How could a mind who doesnĀ“t understand emotions embrace that it is not a sign of weakness but quiet opposite. It is easier to deny the huge impact it has on the body, mind, emotions, performance, mood every single month because it is just not convenient being sensitive and human. It takes time, effort and open mind to understand what is really happening. Unfortunatelly that doesnĀ“t earn any money or perform well on annual progress presentations.

Cycle taught me aĀ lot about myself. Every month IĀ can see aĀ pattern appearing. Just before Ā“the cleaning processĀ“ my moods change sometimes rapidly. There is nothing IĀ can do about it as IĀ believe you out there either. All we can do is embrace the fact that we are emotional, nervous even mean sometimes and giving people around us aĀ little hard time.

IĀ hear you it is not easy to deal with us but trust me it is not easy to be us in the time either.

Often I would feel to be a different person. My moods lower down, for about a week before,I would prefer quiet environment, no people and withdraw. It is not always possible though in such sped up lives we live sometimes in structure where society is build the way where are no breaks or acknowledgments of womanā€™s monthly cycle.

I am starting to understand better what could of been society before patriarchy when woman was a centre of society connected to very raw source of our humanness ā€“ emotions, nature cycles, body, all we are made of and from.

We donĀ“t live in that world anymore because from body and our heart we moved into our heads. We disconnected from our bodies so much, that sometimes we canĀ“t even spot our own emotions, we became unaware how much they drive our behaviour and thought patterns. In this sense woman are very lucky, because cycle is bringing us back, is teaching us to connect with ourselves to be aware of the pattern to listen what our body needs and is telling us.

It is such aĀ creative process as well. According to my cycle IĀ see the patter of creativity emerging. All the senses heighten just before sometimes in such an overwhelming way that bearing noise is difficult, emotions of other people, my own emotions which reach extreme points.

I am not able to be creative in this time.

Everything feels pointless what the body needs here is quiet going inside rather to the outside world, reflect because something is ending and needs to be processed and let go for another new beginning. Ā Just after everything calms down I feel renewed as the body is renewed once again. My creativity emerges, my mood is cheerer, ideas emerge, I have much more energy.

New cycle has started and the process of born and death in symbolic way is starting once again.

As a little child full of energy I enter first days, so excited about everything every single experience and as I grow Ā“olderĀ“ throughout the process I calm down and go into slower retrospective state as the cycle is reaching its end just before the period comes the same way as one is reaching end of their life. Month passed and death and new beginning will be experienced once again.

Understanding this process helped me to connect natural processes in life. Everything is changing all the time, nothing stays still or forever, what is born needs to die one day, itā€™s a natural process we forgot in technological by mind run world.

I feel connected to my woman site today as never before. Through all the pain, misunderstanding, blame, judgment of such natural process we experience every month I finally came to understand how powerful and necessary this all is.

All we need is a support, acceptance and respect that we bear this to show you what one part of human nature is truly about šŸ™‚

Fairy Hunt

When I moved here what I was most taken by were stories about mythical creatures and fairies srill fairly lalive among the people. They are very proud for this heritage which I find fascinating and somewhat similar to my own culture where many fairy tales about mythical creatures still live among the people. Maybe not in such extend as here yet I remember stories to be told as a child or attending events and festivities closely connected with old traditions.

With all this mythical knowledge once you see the beautiful nature here or wherever else there you can let your imagination go and meet fairy behind the trees.

I have few stories of my own while frowing up. There used to be a tree close to my parentā€™s field. I spent hours talking to it and back then I believed it is talking back to me. Sounds crazy right? Yet I donĀ“t think it was that crazy at all, because as much I learnt there are different parts of our personalities and probably this one was one of them projected by my Ā“child meĀ“ into a tree. I gave her even a name – Agatha. It certainly was my good wise fairy always providing comfort and good advice.

My mum taught me hug trees when I was little, because they carry beautiful energy from the source. Every time we would go to the forest she would hug trees I would follow until I entered Ā“coolĀ“ age and found that to be somewhat crazy. I am realizing just now how much these small rituals meant and how they created my strong connection to life, nature and everything alive.

Walking through a beautiful forest thinking that there are tiny creatures protecting its beauty gives me joy and reassurance that not all is lost yet that nature will always find a way. Little painting I did here inspired by nature was very free flow illustration of possible worries and yet freedom of the fairies. ItĀ“s more of a study then final piece yet I enjoyed every second of the painting. Come with me for a little fairy hunt today.

Do you have any fairy stories of your own? I would be happy to hear šŸ™‚

Scotland – artists inspiration

Sometimes we happen to be in place we havenĀ“t maybe even indented to be. Once aĀ friend told me that Edinburgh or even Scotland is calling its people. IĀ have heard so many stories of people who happened to come to Edinburgh not knowing why they came just they felt thatĀ“s the place they need to go to.

I havenĀ“t really intended coming here it was more of an only option back then and I would probably choose completely different destination, but life made it the way that I appeared here. Slowly I have started to understand that this is a place where I am going to be for quite some time and that it will mean a lot to me.

Eva_ch - posts

I often wondered why Edinburgh, why Scotland as either was a place I would ever see myself belonging. Yet it happened to be right place for my upcoming path which grew tall in my heart and became my second home. I even learned that I must have lived here before (if you believe in past lives). It feels as I have already lived a lifetime looking back to over a decade of my adult life. So many experiences and so many things shaped who I am today.

Here I found sanctuary, safe place to find my true calling but as well a lot of pain and heartbreak. Here I experienced the wildest emotional shifts to face almost every single bit of my personality bits I didnā€™t want to face or would of like. That is part of the journey though isnĀ“t it? Without everything we experience we wouldnĀ“t be who we are today.

It took me years to find confidence and understand that art is the only path I can take, only title I am comfortable with and only thing I would truly like to keep throughout my life. I can do and probably will do many other jobs but even if itĀ“s meant to be for sake of taking out things which inspired me and they wonĀ“t go nowhere else than on this blog that is enough and I feel as I followed that inner calling.

Today IĀ am on artistic journey.

The place where I live is full of inspiration which I just would love to take in and out for others to enjoy. In reality every place is full of inspiration and as long I can remember I could always see it everywhere. I still donĀ“t always know how to take it out but thatĀ“s the beauty of the process.

I live in the city yet I am mostly inspired by nature. There is no option for me at the moment to live anywhere else or closer to the nature where I hear my true calling, so rather than soak myself in the pity of it, I have decided to take inspiration from where I am at. By slow baby steps I am getting closer.

Apart of painting and drawing I have started creating videos about my inspiration not only for art but to live creative life because I believe we all are artists in some way we just need to allow ourselves to see it within us.

It is only a beginning of things which inspire me here in Scotland but I tried to grasp a tiny bit. I am still learning to really understand video making and the technology I have doesnĀ“t allow me to truly make it the way IĀ“d like it to be, but baby steps.

Let me bring you small part of the beauty I see and was blessed to enjoy.

Herbs picking – ritual to connect with ancestors

It is summer again. Scottish summers are very different to those back in Slovakia. There is aĀ saying hereā€¦

Ā“People need to get used to that summer is not in July and August but in May/June and SeptemberĀ“

This saying couldnĀ“t be more truth.

Lately we have a lot of rain and only few days now and then happen to be sunny and warm.

I think thatĀ“s why I was lately coming back in my mind to the last summer when I visited my parents. It was over thirty degrees nice warm and sunny almost all the time. One day we have decided to go to the forest for some mushroom picking. It wasnĀ“t the best season for doing so but it was a bit rainy before I came so maybe there was a chance for some mushrooms growing.

This article though is not going to be about our family tradition of mushroom picking but rather about another quite traditional activity in the family ā€“ herbs picking.

Street where I grew up is a quiet street where you can enter fields just around the corner. There is a meadow and little stream where flowers blossom in the spring and summer. Many of them are herbs which generations of woman in my family used to pick up and cook different kind of remedies from them.

I remember when I was a little girl for every bump I had there was a special cream which my grandma made and cured everything with.

This skill and interest certainly is something I have inherited as well. I have done some herbs picking only few times here in Scotland so last summer as we got out of the forest and there was this beautiful meadow full of flowers I couldnĀ“t resist and persuaded my parents to stay for a while.

They say that the best time for picking herbs is sunny midday, so that day was exactly like it welcoming us to the flowery meadow.

I felt recently that creating this video would of give me opportunity to connect with these parts of myself somewhat forgotten, connect with my ancestors whose life was so much connected with nature but for some reason they just tried to forget it. There is a lot of we can find in ourselves which is going into past generations of hundreds years ago. My need for nature coming to the basics is Ā“the callingĀ“of my old ancestors whose lands were possibly taken and who were forced to become someone else than who they have been for generations.

Continue reading

Artists inspiration during midsummer day 2020

It is not long from midsummer day. Every year even if IĀ forget it somehow comes to my awareness. This year wasnĀ“t different.

IĀ was moving flat which took aĀ lot of my attention. Around 24st of June IĀ started to be fulfilled with this new strange energy. It is every year around this time I feel as everything renew itself.

I moved a flat so obviously things started to be new I basically am starting over, but there was something else into it. I felt this deep connection to something inside of me.

Forgotten.

As I was looking for few things into the flat I donĀ“t even know how suddenly I ended up on the e-shop of one talented artist. She creats these beautiful symbolic goddesses and seeing those pictures I just fell in love.

IMG_9163There was so much symbolism which just was so deeply talking to me connecting with this part of me I have forgotten about. Each goddess would represent certain aspect of mostly womanhood.

I spent hours just reading about them and connecting with this mythical symbolism.

At the end I ended up ordering few pictures after thorough consideration which ones are for me. Those pictures just created certain frame in which I finally saw myself and woman in general. I felt a wave of inspiration a hope that these little women who got such a huge responsibility to carry humanā€™s desires and dreams, bringing them to their own self will remind me of my own path. Journey towards never ending inspiration and understanding which is deep inside of each of us.

Once again IĀ heard calling of the nature because not only one goddess was connected to nature and wild animals. This calling is deep and different to anything IĀ have ever experienced before.

Art (in different forms) and nature.

Only two things which made complete sense throughout my whole life. Every midsummer day directly or no directly is reminding me of this calling so strongly that is impossible not to listen.

So I created this little video about goddesses which came into my life during midsummer time of 2020. Enjoy! šŸ™‚

 

Hidden inspiration of scottish borders

Do you know that feeling that you are somewhere and you think that you know it there and yet still something can truly surprise you?

ThatĀ“s why I love Scotland. It is beautiful green country where nature shows itself in its fullest. Every time I go somewhere I am stunned by its beauty. Always I found hidden treaures of this country and little suprises which inspire my soul.

Continue reading

Hiking skottish highlands with 20kg backpack. Is it possible?

Breath taking mountains wilderness and nothing just nature around is why I love hiking. It can be overwhelming sometimes but same time itĀ“s one of those things which make you realise youĀ“re alive.

Once you look from top of the mountain around feeling almost as a part of clouds and heaven. Do you know that feeling? Not just slight rush through your body and stomach, proudness of what you have just managed to climb but as well that feeling of freedom, being part of something much bigger which seems to be almost reachable on the top of the mountain or you can almost smell it in the air surrounding the mountain lake.

Continue reading

Crossing Forth Bridge (South Queensferry and Dalmeny)

My friend once told me Ā“Buy aĀ ticket to South Queensferry, cross the bridge, walk around and then stop by in Dalmeny. Just tell to the ticket guy that you will be stopping in Dalmeny and then continue to Edinburgh. He should be fine.Ā“ As person who doesnĀ“t like conflicts (in aĀ case one would of happen with ticket guy) IĀ wasnĀ“t very sure about this idea. But IĀ took aĀ risk.

Edinburgh itself offers aĀ lot of interesting places to visit. Do you want to explore deeper and more father? Just by train or bus distance there are amazing places which shouldnĀ“t be abandoned in EdinburghĀ“s shadow.

P1130969 Continue reading

Wallace Cage (from Rosewell to Roslin)

I was walking through the forest when fairy appeared: Ā“YouĀ“re in forbidden fairy-tale land, no many people access this different realm.Ā“ Do you like fairy-tales as I do? Scotland is full of them. Let me tell you about one of them.

There is one place not far from Edinburgh and very well known for Down Browns movie ā€“ Roslin. Today IĀ donĀ“t want to talk about the chapel although one day IĀ will get there too. IĀ would like to talk about the trip from Rosewell across the hill to Roslin and passing by legendary William Wallace cage.

That was quite rainy day when IĀ took aĀ trip from one village to another. My main goal was to find Wallace cage as IĀ tried it once but IĀ wasnĀ“t successful. IĀ have to admit IĀ wasnĀ“t prepared that time and that was very last minute idea once we went to visit Roslin chapel. This time my goal was very clear IĀ went on my own and enjoyed very rainy scottish walk through fields and forest to find William Wallace cage. There is actually not very easy walk there. Without nowadays technology IĀ would never find it, well IĀ didnĀ“t even have aĀ map just navigation in my phone.

IMG_1590

Continue reading